Time to Kill

every time i see you
i pretend i’m fine.
once you turn away
i begin to cry.

So much pain
behind these eyes.
All the truth you knew
turned out to be lies.

when it rains i don’t mind
when i cry.
because i go alongside
the sky.

i say i’m over him
but its just a way
to hide the pain and
get through one more day.

how can you break my heart
and still tell me you love me?
why can’t you just go away
and leave my poor heart be?

to my own reflection
i said, “I will be strong.”
but i was lying to
myself all along.

you have no idea
what’s behind my smile.
i just have to
hold it there a little while.

you promised me you’d
take the pain away.
but leaving me
didn’t do it, okay?

now it’s time
to let go of it all,
and stand up and brush off
from that hard fall.

                                ~Mason