Losing Contact

I never really
recovered from
all that, did I?
The way I
clung to you
so enviously
wishing that
I could mean
as much to
you as she.
Now I'll
admit that
I got over it
for awhile,
but every now
and again
it'll come back
to kick me in
the ass.
And I'll watch
from behind,
always following
because I can't
let it go.
You'll turn around
and smile,
call me to your side.
And when you do
it's so uplifting
that I can't help
but smile
and follow.
But then she
catches your
eye, and I
lose contact.
Earth to you,
earth to you!
But I realize
that once again
I've lost
contact.